Swallowed Up
Swallowed up by another hollow year
Sleepless nights, just wishing it away
Swallowed up by another hollow year
Too many wasted hours
Trapped inside this dying love
Walking half asleep
Through all these woken dreams
Hoping one more step
Will take me where I want to be
So far away from this autumn of our love
And so far away from all the joy that I gave up
Inside this woken dream I dig out both my eyes
And lock away my tongue
Inside this woken dream I'd said all I could say
And destroyed our yesterdays
Sorrow swept through us
Hammered at the cracks
Until our little world
Had fallen apart
Clinging on so tightly
To our dying love
Clinging on so tightly
I brace myself for the worst
Hiding my red eyes
I place my head inside my hands
Those red eyes give everything away
Those red eyes
Give me all away
I don't want to exist inside this dying love
This dying love has woken me to often
This hurtful love has led my heart to hide away
I don't want to exist inside this dying love
Sunday
Walking this concrete wishing for the rain
Wishing for the rain without a cloud in the sky
Walking this concrete feeling so lost
Feeling so lost so close to your front door
It's when the sun catches my eye
Strikes my heart every Sunday morning
It's when I think of you most
And my heart sinks in mourning
I've never been back to see you
All alone in the ground
Where gold etched letters
Scream your name out loud
"Don't worry" said the fear in his eyes
"Don't worry son, I'm just waiting to die"
I'll walk up and down these streets
These old familiar streets
But the concrete
Won't feel like home to me
Disappointment
This is the disappointment
And it's all unravelling.
Passing out on these pillows we used to share
Lying to myself, helpless with myself
Thinking through dead end memories
What did you really mean to me?
Sick to my stomach
Just staring at these four walls
It's the saddest sight
I've not slept enough tonight
I tried to talk myself out of this
But I'm all out of words
In this love story absent of the love
We stand so close together
Our hearts beating out of time
Clasping hands so tightly
We're barely holding on
I have to let you know
This goodbye
Will leave a stain on my mind
And as the words linger on our lips
With this dying breath
We hang our heads
So as the train pulls away
I'll tell myself that i'm okay without you
And as my heart begins to pull away
I'll tell myself that it will be okay
And that I don't miss you.
I'm not missing you.
A Life In Pieces
Falling short of everything you ever thought you'd be
Losing hope in happy memories
Trapped in a life
You never thought would be yours
Left to exist in denial
Weeks come and go
Wishing you could be someone else
But your dead weight is pulling you apart
Sitting outside of everything
Waiting for a life to start
But these are your salad days
And they're quickly rotting away
Scratching out an existence
Against the backdrop of a troubled life
Losing all your momentum
To the soundtrack of fluorescent lights
Just left screaming into open silence
Of "what could have been's"
And "I wish I'd tried harder"
Longing to be someone else
Wishing to be someone else
Remembrance
Waking up so cold
In this bed I've laced with sweat
Dripping in all my "used to be's"
As I start to reminisce, I start to breathe it in
That nostalgic air
I remember thinking
Those were the days
When the rain couldn't fall
I remember the deep blue skies
And not having a fucking care in the world
But I know it's not real
But I can't escape this
This air has filled my lungs
And I can't breathe out
This nostalgic air is so stale
How could I forget?
All the horror and all the regret
I'm forgetting
Those were never our beautiful days
They will always be our darkest days
We were living through our darkest days
The View From Below
Everything’s the same
Feeling so fucking drained
Voice stretched out across the discordant tones
That fill up my life
Maybe I’m just wrapped up in self pity
Or maybe it’s the thought of all this repetition
My head is pounding and it’s only silence
Coming out of these headphones
I’ll wait forever on a tomorrow that never comes
It’s all I have
Driving but I can’t see the road anymore
I always seem to miss the turn off
My tank is running so low
It’s running scared
Because I’ve got nowhere to go
I’m wading through this life
Wading through a life I barely know as my own
Giving up instead of growing up
It’s all I’ve ever known
The cycle really has to end
I’m still waiting
For my guiding light
To reignite
All my teenage dreams
Are coming back to laugh at me
But I’m climbing out this hole
It’s taken 25 years to dig
Waiting for my guiding light to reignite
The Last Drive
I opened the car door
And climbed inside
Trembling hands
Clutching broken pride
Stare through misted glass
As my thoughts rewind
I was counting every breath
I was counting on the end
I just wanted a way out
As I pull out the street
It’s now totally out of reach
And I keep repeating ‘I don’t care’
But this is what it’s like
When losing everything
Is everything that you wanted
I should have cut out my tongue
And filled that room with silence
That silence
Would never have brought me here
But sitting in this front seat
As the mist begins to clear
I’ve never seen the rain
Look so beautiful
So now it’s like our hands never touched
It’s like we never said goodbye
I couldn’t have given it all away
Because it was never really mine
I’ll always cherish this Friday night
Holding my pride so tight
Midnight Lights
My world is upside down
Everything is starting to fade out
I dream of living in brighter days
And not feeling so fucking far away
My world is upside down
All I can do is wait this out
With my heart in my mouth
I guess I’ll have to wait this out
Take me out tonight
I feel like losing my fucking mind
Please take me out tonight
I don’t need to see beauty
I just need to feel alive
I thought this was over?
That’s what you used to say
I thought this was over too
I never thought you could bring this sorrow my way
Trying to figure out how we got this far
I think i’d rather just forget
Please forget me
And I’ll forget us
Can we forget the way we were?
Over The Edge
It’s those same sad eyes
Those distant familiar red eyes
Looking through me with all their honesty
I always thought that I was by myself,
holding on alone, I didn’t need anyone’s help
But now you’ve taken my hand and all the fear is gone
You’ve taken my hand and now I’m ready to fall
Over the edge
This is us falling off the edge.
Departures
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