Away
I went aboard to leave this unloved place
To leave everyone acting in my tragic comedy
I tried to restart, a deja-vu in the lonely dark.
I tried to invent myself new once again, no more masks to wear.
so weigh the anchor and set sails,
captain set this ship on course, I’ve no more time to waste.
While waves are kissing me and seagulls announcing rough sea,
I feel so sorry for loving you
Believe if I say – I must go away
This is my only chance to give my life kind of self-confidence
Believe if I say – I must go away
This is my worst mistake, but for god’s sake I need a fucking break.
I tried to tell you the truth, but there was never the right time
I behaved in very cowardly way - I hate myself – fact is everything you know about me
Is just a cobweb full of lies
I’m not the guy you love
I’m just a stranger
Now I’m gone and I feel ashamed, I feel ashamed of thinking of you
I’m sorry...I’m fucking sorry....I feel so sorry for loving you
No Salvation
This day’s another wasted one, I can feel it inside when I open my eyes
Desperate screams confusing my mind, my heart’s like broken glass.
Nine hours of decay before I’ll be back at home to creep in my grave
I wish I could be a kid once again.
There is nothing for strife
Lock up myself in a tiny room
My soul is filled with gloom
I never can be satisfied
I fight as hard I can
But the demons still live on
No joy, no luck, no friends
I really hate this life
I run until my lung breaks down
Scream til voice doesn’t utter a sound
Clench my hands full of hate, but there’s nobody to blame
Once I looked for signs, tried to get a new grip to find a way out of this
But by now I’ve no more faith.
No salvation – can’t see a glimmer of hope
No salvation – I’m damned to end of my fucking days
No salvation – can’t see a glimmer of hope
No salvation – I’m damned to end of my fucking days
I run until my lung breaks down
Scream til voice doesn’t utter a sound
Clench my hands full of hate, but there’s nobody to blame
I Won’t Forget
Spit in my face and break my bones
There’s nothing inside left to feel kind of pain
All the ways you try to humiliate me I’m already gone
Till this day i sustained much worser, I will be dumb
Screaming into my apathetic face won’t make any wished results
Your bosses did their job at me very well – the broke my soul
The only love I lived for, died in your prison cell
Now I’m the next to get my trial, no more fear I don’t wanna hide
Just for one day we wanted be free – It was our life – we needed no excuse
Cause we were only gay.
One’s sexuality is a choice of his own free will – free will
Ban homophobia, stand for the spirit of equality
No more discrimination, it’s self realization – spread this in every nation
No homophobic assholes in the hardcore scene – fuck all who disagree
I will never forget hardcore music is a kind of punkrock
So we will always fight for liberty and human rights.
The Farewell
Feeling left behind, everyday I’m just killing my time
All my dreams became a compromise, the flame is smothering
This life has nothing for me and no drug can deaden this pain,
Sinking ships is all I see, no reason to stay.
Hate my life for its destroying vein,
this is the time to say goodbye
I can’t really say in which way it’s hurting me, dead – dead inside
I can’t see a rising sun, this only hope is gone
That’s why I escape, escape in my dreams
This is my....this is my final goodbye
I’am running scared, with no place to call my home
We’re all marked for life, so take my hand as we can make this story end now
Maybe you can take this pain away, away from me
There’s nothing left to stay
There’s nothing left to say
A Smile appears on my face while I am fading away
S.O.S.
I got lost in a western state, born free lived caged, nothing more is to say
Sometime look back to this days: competed for fame, made blames while living in replays. And this all made sense to me, worked hard, paid bills and gave nothing for free, but one day it destroyed my brain and now I don’t even know my fucking name.
Looked for joy, but this I never got. Confused of too many options stumbling in strange plots, lost everything and then I lost myself, well educated prodigal son too weak to start again.
SOS – Is anybody there? Die on the floor but you just check your mobile phone
I need help, but you’re just passing by
SOS – Is anybody there? Don’t you see I’m dying over here. Turn down your fucking nose and see at my face
I’m paralyzed and I’m depend on you. I hope have more courage than me in my former life. 23 years and don’t know who I am. just this atrophy of my tortured mind I try to deal with. Inhumanity I imitated from them caused to my personal decline,
I’ve been so fucking blind
I got lost in a western state, green eyes brown hair, maybe you’re knowing my name
Sometimes look back to this days: competed for fame, made blames while living in replays. And this all made sense to me, worked hard, paid bills and gave nothing for free, but one day it destroyed my brain and now I don’t even know my fucking name.
From This Day On
